~starcrazy

so sometimes i harbour this hysterical delusion of being an artist. its an ongoing, repetative delerium of mine, kind of like a bad dream, or if not a bad dream, a strangely unsettling one. of being out of place. luckily, in the interests of reality, i really dont take myself very seriously. or rather, i consider myself kind of insignificant as i do most other things.... in most respects. whatever semblance of achievement, ego or ambition it takes to take yourself seriously seems to have passed me by... nontheless, i still sometimes seem to like to pretend that im interesting, hence, i guess all this art stuff will still be here in fits and starts. fits and starts, thats me. since i dont update journals, ever, any more - and have recently decided that updating journals is bad luck anyway - i suppose i should leave something to stand here with a little more substance. and having now completely failed to do that... my job is done.